I’ve been trying to find the right time to sit and write my first post as so much is circulating in my mind. Where should I begin? How do I start this off? We have all heard the phrase “give and you shall receive.” We all know its meaning and essence and while my purpose is to give, I have already received more than I could have ever imagine. Not just financially, but emotionally, spiritually, mentally, socially, and physically. There were so many days that I wanted to just quit. It became too much to do by myself. I have always prided myself in being independent and not relying on others however this project has forced me to “reach out.” I am humbled by the amount of selflessness and love that this has created.
The support from people, many whom I have never met before…it’s something beautiful. My purpose is simple: to be of service, to spread love and to leave this world a better place. Thank you for believing in me and the work I am about to do which has given me the strength to continue to more forward.
There’s no telling what will happen after this. I have no idea what will come after this and it terrifies me but excites me at the same time. The unknown…something many of us fear and structure our life to be predictable and routine so that we can avoid the “not knowing” but we all know that, “the only constant in life is change.” Watching the seasons change is the most magical thing to me. Nature embraces the transitions and doesn’t resist so why should we?
This whole experience has required every ounce of faith I have because in doing what I am about to do ,I have to surrender everything familiar and comfortable and that includes “the plan” for when I return, if I return. Many people ask, “What will you do if you don’t raise all the funds? Where will you come back to? Where will you work?” Everytime this gets brought up I panic. My mind says, “Yesmeen they are right, what will you do? Where will you go? How will you make money?” That’s fear trying to get the best of me, especially since I am in a vulnerable place,a perfect place to slip in ( I am sure many of you can relate). I choose not to respond to that as I really have NO IDEA where this will take me. My heart tells me not to worry, that it’s going to be beautiful and to expect more miracles. That’s what love tells me. How do I feel love within? When I want to breakdown, I just sit on the floor, cross my legs and start breathing. I go into “gratitude mode.” I go through all the wonderful things that have happened that I have to be grateful for and I end up realizing how much love has come from this. Then, something interesting happens. I notice myself smiling, I feel this outpouring of love fill me up and usually tears of joy come running down my face. That all came from stillness and from within and we all have the power to access that love. In addition, the amount of people choosing to be part of this is something beautiful. I didn’t force anyone to click my campaign page, my blog, to watch my video. I didn’t have to. I simply shared something that’s been put on my heart and the rest is out of my control. I had to surrender. This is a selfless love project and you all have given me the fuel I need to make it happen. #lastnightatwork #9daysleft #letthepackingbegin